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AiyaChica828
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Name: Aileen
Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 8/28/1982
Gender: Female
Interests: conspiring evilness, TV, swimming, singing, dancing, eating, pimping, and sleeping!
Expertise: Strategic evil planning, bacterial genome manipulation, bomb designing, consume large quantities of food, but of course my best is nerd it like there's no tomorrow and studying like a mad woman =) wait...scratch the nerding and studying part..that's old news...now it's chilling it up the wazoo b/c aileen's a full time working woman w/NO SCHOOL!!! MWA HA HA HA HA...
Occupation: Operations
Industry: Research
Message: message me
AIM:  AiyaChica828
Member Since:
1/24/2003
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| I got sick of xanga...probably it's because of my non-conformitive/ADD nature. so i've decided to switch over to blogger's blog  here's the link to my new blog!
Aileen's New Blog
sayonara xanga! helloooooooo blogger's blog!  | | |
| the following link's pics to my Asia trip...i uploaded them at last..so check them out!
http://share.shutterfly.com/osi.jsp?i=EeCNWjZq5ct3Nw | | |
| THE WAITING GAME
'tis the month i hear the results from the schools i interviewed. nerve wracking? indeed. i already know this one girl that interviewed with me got accepted into UCSD...soo...i should hear from them soon. As much as I'd like to say I dont really give a damn..I do (i'm a liar....yes i know). I express the whole "i'll see where life takes me" attitude, but the reality is...I want life to go according to MY way! I still have yet to hear from ANY of the schools. I did get 2 more interivews (one with UofP and another one with Purdue). So 5 interviews out of 6 schools i applied to...not too shabby for aileen! Something is seriously wrong with the way I present myself if i dont get into ONE (-_-") for sure i'll be going to Stockton for the UofP interview on march 11...mayhaps i'll be traveling to Indiana for Purdue interview as well...yeeeeeha! (the mideast...where Asians are TRULY the minority..hmm..are there farmers and cowboys there??? hehehe...).
The anticipation is probably the worst part in this whole process. I feel like a very hungry person, who ordered a huge platter of my favorite food, and now, I am just waiting for the waiter to bring them up. Whether or not the food's good or bad, it's still something to satisfy my unsatiable appetite nonetheless (ah...food analogy goes for everything! speaking of which...i'm hungry right now ). I don't really mind if i get a rejection...it will be a blow to my ultrahumongoginormous ego...but all i want is a peace of mind. being the impatient person that i am...i will devour whatever it is in front of me...wait..i mean..i will accept whatever decision it may be (dang it...i really want some food...ahhh...fooood...  )
Life is nothing but a big waiting game. you're always waiting for SOMETHING, let it be for food (ahh...food.... ), in line for disneyland, traffic (which can drive a person ABSOLUTELY insane! who in their right mind would perform road construction during peak hour at the busiest street in la jolla?!?  ), job offers, interviews, schools, that "special" someone to come along, that "special" someone to ask you out, marriage proposal, to make it into the world, to grow up, vacations, holidays, end of the week (it's only wednesday...bah!), retirement,...etc. the list is never ending. In the end...we'll all be waiting for the visit from death to release us from our old body/soul (for me it's more like the visit from the devil to claim my soul). The virtue of patience is perhaps our winning ticket in this long and tedious game. i still gotta say.....
FOR CRYING OUT LOUD....LET ME KNOW ALREADY DANG IT!!!! *shakes fist in air*
i just lost my patience...my apologies...but then again...i already admitted i'm impatient..i ain't perfect you know! (did that just destroy this angelic image you have of me? it did??? awwww...well..you asked for it).
*sigh* i shall inform you all if i hear anything from the schools or if i'm committed to an asylum..reason? insanity stemmed from my very own impatience, aka i drove myself nuts (it's the conspiracy employed by the pharm school i tell ya! it's not me i swear!!) meanwhile..i'm gonna get myself a big burrito and satisfy my tummy first everything else can wait when hunger calls
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| AHHHH~~~~~CHOO!!!
2 interviews, one week of work, one week of classes, one lab report, some chillinage, 3 days of weekend, one car maintenance, 2 days in bed, and one lingering sickness later...yes, i made it alive! now..there's nothing left for me but to continue my mundane daily activities and anticipate the arrival of my acceptance letters (if there are any)...goodie hurray! 
if u're wondering how i did on my interviews...not too shabby in my own personal opinion. I showed them what "aileen" is about (aka the definition of insanity). The interviewers were really nice...but BECAUSE they were nice, it was very hard for me to evaluate my performance and assess how i did in comparison to others (but of course...i always come on top no matter what! mwa ha ha ha ha ah j/k). no weird questions asked this time around. I have come to notice i have a knack for guessing essay questions...because one of the essay questions for UCSF was..."what's the one single life experience you think everyone should have and why?". As many of my loyal readers know...i wrote an entry not too long ago preaching the idea of savoring loneliness. boy did that come in handy! and again...i probably signed my own rejection letter with that answer..but hey...that's just aileen being..umm.."aileen" (i really should quit that when i deal with things that "matter") i shall immediately inform everyone when and "if" there are any acceptances. so stay tuned! for aileen's life's on the line!
I asked for some "aileen" time...and i certainly got what i wanted. i abstained 2 days from hyperness/outting tendencies, sustained hermit status, and was in bed for 2 days straight! that's gotta be some type of record! i should've been sick during the week...not during my rare and occassional 3 days weekend..retarded immune system..i shake my fist at you! *shakes fist in air* on the plus side..have not slept so much in a loooong while! not to mention i caught the all star game!
u tend to think a lot when you cant do anything but to lay on your bed and waiting for your nose to clear up. what was i thinking about??? good question...TOO MUCH! (like you would wanna know anywayz...since that entails the possibility of an endless and LONG A$$ entry). my head was bouncing off the wall due to the nyquil effects. incoherence in aileen's mind equals to insanity! Been reading up on everyone's blogs..THAT is for sure! (hey..gotta find some things to occupy my boredom!)
there has been o so many entries on the topic of "drama". i also noticed...when we say "drama", we generally equate the term to "relationship problems". The technical definition of "drama" is "A situation or succession of events in real life having the dramatic progression or emotional effect characteristic of a play". such a term can be referred to anything...but whenever anyone says "i'm drama free" ..that usually tend to represent the state of singledom. My question is...if relationship is "drama"...why do we still yearn for it? (o.O) do we gravitates towards drama? are relationships ALL drama? or are they just more drama prone than most of the other life situations? and why do relationship problems distraught us so much??? it seems to be the cause of most of our sufferings, insecurities, and it dictates our emotions like an extreme roller coaster. it's the main topic in everyone's convo! Relationships/love has to be incorporated into even the most masculine films! i cannot come up w/a conclusion for it because i myself am baffled by the problematic aspects pertained to relationships.
I can only say...perhaps it dates back to our fear of being alone..or just our hormone raging for a mate (aka horniness...admit it! u're horny!).
we're all on our own little rollercoaster...a ride for which u're strapped down to the chair and you butt's super glued to the seat. you cant avid it and it's not possible to jump off...so scream, laugh, be scared, anticipate, and enjoy the ups and downs of relationships.
have a safe ride with your seat belts fastened...i'm gonna go and blow my nose in the mean time
TOODLES!
P.S. you just wasted your time reading an entry with absolutely no significance or meaning...it's all part of my incoherence...but then again...when am i ever coherent? i applaud you for making it thus far and i only have one word for you...SUCKER! | | |
| To Be...or NOT To Be...
'tis the weekend of my interview "extravaganza" as i like to call it. i am currently in the wonderful city of frisco and emersed myself inYAY area! flew in from SD to Oakland just a few hours ago... my interview w/UCSF is about 12hrs away and my future shall be determined by my performance and my "communication adequacies" during the interview. but of course...i wouldnt call it an "extravaganza" for no reason..right after my UCSF interview...i have to fly from oakland back to LA and the following morning (or to be technical..it's tomorrow) i have an interview with USC. weeeee.....!!! get 2 interviews done within 24hrs! wish me luck and pray for me. for i need all the lucks there is and all the prayers out there...hopefully i'll kick a$$ and show them what "aileen power" is all about! yeah!!!  my future awaits me and my destiny as a pharmacist remains as a question mark...to be...or not to be...THAT is the ultimate question. or rather..my question is more contiguous with the line of "i want to be, will they let me be?" my fate is in the hands of the people who will only know me by how i interact with them in the 30min time period i get with them and they assessment of me on paper. how....provokatively judgemental and nerve wracking...i hope i wont rub them off the wrong way *crossing fingers*
now..off to something COMPLETELY non-related to what i was speaking of in the previous paragraph and random....wishing wells/fountains/body of water does make "someone's" wish come true...key word "someone".(hence..might not apply to YOU...unless you either decided to sign your soul to the devil or own your very own...genie in a bottle...limited supply and credit cards accepted )
just exactly how? and how can i be sure it's not a superstition? the point lies in that "someone's" gotta profit from all the pocket chunk change that we decide to toss in the water believing our wishes will somehow magically come true because we "paid" a penny/dime/nickle/dime for it. you ever realize that all the wells/fountains/body of water is never overflowing with coins or become "body of metal" instead of water? i'm sure those fountains/wells/body of water has existed probably prior to my very own existence. however...it's never "filled"...the bottom of these fountain/well/body of water always have just some "sparse" change so that it'll promote you to toss in some more (either as a bull's eye practice to see if you can hit the empty spots, or simply to see if you can make it to the top of the fountain..u know u've all done it). so obviously "someone" has been cleaning out those coins from the wells. hence..when someone profits...someone's wish MAY come true. might not be your's because afterall..you're the one that's losing some change that might help you out later when you're trying to buy a 99 cent taco in tijuana. however..you do obtain the the internal complacency of "knowing" you made a wish and it's very possible that the water will somehow defer your message to God/devil/genie and your wish will be granted. whoever's profiting from these coins might just laugh at you and say...you gullible superstitious idiot...thanx for giving me free money! why do we still do it? *shrug* i have come to conclude it's just the "wish making" nature in all of us. we just LOVE wishes...and if a body of water can perhaps "somehow" have the "magical" power to make them come true..shoot..doesnt hurt to pay the price of a coin and toss in a wish.
what's the point then?
i needed extra 25 cents today for the vending machine (bastards...decided to increase the price on me! i shake my fist at you!!! *shakes fist in air* ) i just HAD TO get my Dr. Pepper (cravings..they dictate me and play with my emotions). could not find 25 cents anywhere on the ground...my craving for Dr. Pepper (the true REFRESHING taste) is sooo bad that i decided to look at the bottom of this teeeeny weeeeny fountain'ish body of water (i dont even think i can call it a fountain..it's just a structure flowing w/water) next to the vending machine. just as i thought i was just being hopeful..who would throw coins in this fountain looka like thing inside a RESEARCH FACILITY? long and behold...my eyes caught a shiny round object at the bottom of the "fountain" and what do you know...a quarter! being the shameless individual that i am..i waited when no one's looking (shameless but not stupid) and picked it up from the bottom. my craving was satifsfied...and my wish did come true! thanx to someone's coin....my appreciation for that quarter goes out to you...the unknown gullible superstitious idiot!
conclusion? if there's a foutain/well/body of water in front of me...i'll toss in a coin and wish that i'll get into UCSF...heck...my wish MAY come try and if not...someone just got themself a taco/dr. pepper/whatever. | | |
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